where do I begin…. :(……

I posted these next few post on my other b log so I am copping them here…

Maggie

July 13 2006 –July 9 2015

On the morning of July 8 2015 I learned that my Maggie girl was not long to be with me in this world….she had cancer that had spread to her lungs..starting at some other point in her little body…at this time a mute point it made no difference …they showed me the x-ray her little lungs had many many little tumors…at that time she told me it was terminal…and Maggie  did not have long…and offered to euthanize that day…well I was in total shock that was not an option for me at that time…I think maybe she did not explain enough to me just how sick my baby was…don’t get me wrong…these people at this office were so kind…

Up to the night before she showed no signs of real sickness….for about a week before she had slowed down  in her eating ….other wise she was ok….still having fun and seeing her doggie fiends she has here….then on Tues. the 7th she did not eat at all…and in the middle of the night she wanted a drink of water I put her down and she had trouble making her back legs work stumbling around a little …I went to pick her up but then she walked over and got a drink…I put her back in bed and was so worried I just kept watching her the rest of the night…getting very little sleep…at one point in time she did cry out when I went to pick her up…so I was careful…and she never did it again…

Maggie looking for her Christmas presents (balls)

2014

In the morning called the vet and I took her around 11 …got right in…she check her all over …spine..hips …back and when she check her belly she tensed up somewhat…so x-rays were done…I waited…then she came in and said …I want to  show you the x-rays…showed me her little lungs….told me all those little white dots I was seeing were tumors…that she was not going to get better when I ask…by this time I was crying ….she said her time was short…soon…I did not understand how soon…then she offered that they could do the euthanize that day…I think not sure I screamed NO…I remember this woman is so young to be a vet…does she know what she is talking about…guess they call that denial…she told me also that her respirations were a little rapid…which I could see… but not as bad as it was in the night  she then said a steroid might  help…so we went with the pills…that might work and might not…work meaning she could have up to a couple weeks….

So we took our pills and went home… it was left that I could  call at any time ..we got home just in time to see Chloe Maggie’s friend and her mama…standing in front of our house…I think they were put there by God…just when we needed someone…I was crying…we talked for a long time she was crying…you know how it goes…

I took Maggie in the house fixed her some people food and got that and the pill in her….the one and only one she would take it….I will continue this on next post…

thanks for looking and come back soon blessings to all  G&M