What was next…..

Please know that this is a sad heartbreaking story and it is ok if you want to pass up the next few post…but this is something I have to do for me…I need to get this out…so sorry if it upsets you …

A happy day!

The rest of the day she was somewhat active but not her usual bouncing self..I was watching her breathing and it was not changing any during the day….she did eat a little more food …the people food…I thought by that time she can have anything she wanted  and I was sorry for not giving her people food that she loved…she was always looking for crumbs …sweetheart…..at some point I started to call my family members…my sister first …as she was the closest to Maggie…and Maggie loved her and uncle Ron ….my kids … my daughter and son in law were really close to as she stayed with them for her first two weeks until I could go get her…and son in law was the first person to bond with her…but I won’t go into all that stuff right now…

Word spread around the neighborhood…and she was seeing and reacting as normal to her friends….everyone was so sad and crying….because Maggie is a very sweet lovable baby girl….and everyone loved her….

Maggie in her seat…checking on her Mama…

I am not sure at this point when it started but maybe late afternoon early evening….her respirations started to get worse…by the time we went to bed it was not very good….I was awake all night…she did sleep some ..I think I kept her awake shinning my little flash light on her…or touching her telling her I love her…at midnight time for her pill and she would not take it even with the people food…but did drink…at eight in the morning  I called the vet and they thought it was time for her to go…so got appointment for around 9 this was just 24 hrs that I first learned she was so sick…so picked up my sister and we went…and by the time we got there…she was breathing much better she had rallied…they had everything ready..doc came in we talked…I ask for another exam and she did… I wanted to see x-ray again so my sister could see…and we did that…I just guess I want more conformation I was doing the right thing.…this is a very hard dissection to make…all most beyond what  your mind can comprehend…after the exam ..vet said she felt Maggie was about the same as the day before…in her breathing…I had told how she was in the night how bad her breathing was…and how much better it was now…they were still ready but after much taking and crying I ended up taking her home again…after she got a shot of steroid…and we went home…I want to say how very loving and caring this vet office is …Baker Animal Clinic…Maggie has been coming here since her first puppy check at age 8wks when I got her…I cant say enough about how good they were to us and took so much time with us…I probably have a couple more post to make…I really don’t want this b log to be a downer but as I said I have to do it for me…I am sure there will be more good coming I might be taking a trip to the middle of the state…..we will see…anyway thanks for looking and come back soon…G&still maggie

where do I begin…. :(……

I posted these next few post on my other b log so I am copping them here…

Maggie

July 13 2006 –July 9 2015

On the morning of July 8 2015 I learned that my Maggie girl was not long to be with me in this world….she had cancer that had spread to her lungs..starting at some other point in her little body…at this time a mute point it made no difference …they showed me the x-ray her little lungs had many many little tumors…at that time she told me it was terminal…and Maggie  did not have long…and offered to euthanize that day…well I was in total shock that was not an option for me at that time…I think maybe she did not explain enough to me just how sick my baby was…don’t get me wrong…these people at this office were so kind…

Up to the night before she showed no signs of real sickness….for about a week before she had slowed down  in her eating ….other wise she was ok….still having fun and seeing her doggie fiends she has here….then on Tues. the 7th she did not eat at all…and in the middle of the night she wanted a drink of water I put her down and she had trouble making her back legs work stumbling around a little …I went to pick her up but then she walked over and got a drink…I put her back in bed and was so worried I just kept watching her the rest of the night…getting very little sleep…at one point in time she did cry out when I went to pick her up…so I was careful…and she never did it again…

Maggie looking for her Christmas presents (balls)

2014

In the morning called the vet and I took her around 11 …got right in…she check her all over …spine..hips …back and when she check her belly she tensed up somewhat…so x-rays were done…I waited…then she came in and said …I want to  show you the x-rays…showed me her little lungs….told me all those little white dots I was seeing were tumors…that she was not going to get better when I ask…by this time I was crying ….she said her time was short…soon…I did not understand how soon…then she offered that they could do the euthanize that day…I think not sure I screamed NO…I remember this woman is so young to be a vet…does she know what she is talking about…guess they call that denial…she told me also that her respirations were a little rapid…which I could see… but not as bad as it was in the night  she then said a steroid might  help…so we went with the pills…that might work and might not…work meaning she could have up to a couple weeks….

So we took our pills and went home… it was left that I could  call at any time ..we got home just in time to see Chloe Maggie’s friend and her mama…standing in front of our house…I think they were put there by God…just when we needed someone…I was crying…we talked for a long time she was crying…you know how it goes…

I took Maggie in the house fixed her some people food and got that and the pill in her….the one and only one she would take it….I will continue this on next post…

thanks for looking and come back soon blessings to all  G&M